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perfectly puzzled…

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I hope I could find my way again as I feel lost. I don’t know who I am anymore, and what I want to do, and where I want to go. I’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about forgiving myself for being who I am today, trying to find out the things that could totally make me happy, and searching the meaning of happiness in every single thing or person I meet along my way. I do the things I am not supposed to do. I don’t any longer know how to filter the words I am about to say. I don’t have control to myself anymore. I am drained with the fact that I am confused about something I cannot figure out what is. I have been thinking about it my whole life.

 

My life is an example of an insignificant existence.

 

Nothing’s left to me stable. And the rest of my senses have found their way out that caused me a lot of trouble. I am no longer able to distinguish what is right and what is wrong. I also have forgotten the importance of seeing the truth in one’s eyes, even how to do it. It feels like the light that used to enlighten my way and being has dimmed out. It seems to me that I don’t get the meaning of every lecture I am receiving, despite that I can hear every word. I find it hard to inhale all the good around me for I am not sure if there is any. And whenever I try to breathe out the air I carry within me, I always hope it includes all the toxic in this life.

 

I do not know what is going on.

 

Good thing I still know my name, but who really I am? I have no idea anymore.

kcc.

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Hi! This is Kristine and you just stepped in to my room. Everything's written here is based on my thoughts, experiences, and emotions. I love reading novels, writing essays, and making friends with everybody. 10 Things You Should Know About Kristine 1.She is fascinated by words. At 6, she was already seen for being in love with writing and scribbling books. The first english word she has read all by herself was "write". For her, this is the reason she loves to write and to read. 2. She has climbed 30 mountains already. She started this activity in 2015 until 2017 when she promised to only get back when she has already fulfilled her priorities. As of this time, she's still working hard to be able to go back as soon as possible. 3. She had been in a relationship once. It lasted for 3 years and half of it she firmly believes to be a one-sided love. She gave up on this man in 2017 when she realized that she has been treated like a trash and no woman deserves to be mistreated like this. So she moved forward. 4. She is an old soul in this millennial world. Yes, she is into classics. She loves the things that her friends barely stand like listening to classic love songs. Fan-girling is definitely not her thing. 5. She has received a cake only twice in her entire life. For two consecutive years from her 23rd birthday, she has been given a cake twice. Hopefully this year when she will be celebrating her 25th birthday in December, she would receive one or two. 6. She doesn't have her first dance yet. You might be wondering but she never gone to prom during high school. And the idea of first dance? This is one of the precious gifts she is willing to give to her man on her wedding day. Lovely, isn't it? 7. She loves to talk about life itself. Boring? Nah. She is more into life, the value of it, and the stories of people around her about life. She tends to ask you questions about your life (not to pry or something) when she feels like asking. Bear with her interviewing skills. 8. She aims to travel the Philippines before 30. Before turning 30, she aims to have traveled the 81 provinces of the Philippines and make a vlog out of it. She would love to do it alone. Such a goal! 9. She is reserved. For her, it is when you stop looking for love when love comes for you. You have to do all your might just to see who really she is deep down. 10. She adores museums and parks and bookstores and coffee shops. 10. She is an old soul, remember? This' gonna be the permanent place for my thoughts (hopefully for I am aware that I've created more than 3 blog spots now) wherein I'll be posting my life-experienced dramas and stories. I'll get in touch everyday. I will try. :)

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